I've realised since having sever depression that my friends have been my rocks. I may not have a lot and lost a lot of who I thought were close friends recently, but the ones who have stayed have proved that they do care for me by not going off when everyone else did. I didn't know how I was going to thank them when I realised that all I can do all I have for them is what they have done for me. So, I have decided to write them letters explaining why they mean so much to me.
I realised that isn't a lot to some people and can be seen as if that is how I am going to thank them I should at least tell them (I do, daily.). But I cannot put into words when put on the spot to explain how much they mean to me. So, writing it down will allow me to word it right as well as them to be able to keep the letter; so when they feel low they can read it and realise the impact they have had on someone else's life.
There is one friend in particular who has done everything in his power to help me. Even though he is a £65 train journey away, he has done everything in his power to keep me safe and alive and I know his letter is going to be about 1,000,000,000 pages long. If I feel up to it I might post it one day.
Anyway, better get writing, it is going to take a while.